my brown eyed girl.

oh my sweet brown eyed girl. i'm pretty sure she knows how beautiful she is. but, she's at that age where she also sees differences. i honestly didn't think it would come this soon. what a great segway to explain god made her perfectly. and she is beautiful. and so is everyone else in their own special way. i thought she got it. and i know it's reinforced at school. until the day came. when i was putting her to bed because mark was gone and we went to say our prayers. and she said she wanted god to give her blue eyes so she could match with me. i, of course, thought it was cute. until, she kept repeating it. at the dinner table and randomly to me. every place we go people comment. not on her, but on her brother and his beautiful blue eyes. yes, they are beautiful but there is more to these kids than looks. she asks me a lot "how do i look?" of course we flood her with compliments and tell her she's beautiful everyday. because, of course she is. i shared with her teacher what she was saying because i wanted to address this is the correct way. i can't express how much i love her school and her teacher for taking the time to talk to her and tell her how beautiful she is. she said they played the eye color game at school. so thankful she goes to a christian school with teachers who care so much!

but, it breaks my heart. she's 3.5 and when asked if she loves her brown eyes she says no. i know this will pass. but, for the moment it's heart breaking and hard not to feel helpless because what i am saying is not getting through. it's also terrifying to think about the next 15 years. 

i was signing them up for preschool last week, and someone said to b, look at those big blue eyes. who did you get those from? they of course looked at me and then at avery. and said to her, well you must get those from your daddy. and her response, was "no, jesus gave me my brown eyes." i wanted to melt. man i hope she knows how perfect she is. how beautiful her heart is. how special she is. she's a pleaser. that's her personality. i pray she knows how much she is loved. 

on a much lighter note. she has her first boyfriend. his name will remain anonymous. but she says "she loves him." and i am thoroughly enjoying listening to her tell daddy all about him at dinner while he continues to say he can't be her boyfriend. she cries. it's so cute and hilarious! 

it was pretty warm last week after school. and i really just wanted to sit in a chair and enjoy the sun while the kids played. i thought i had a brilliant idea! so, i got a long roll of paper and finger paints! got them all set up and sat down. even thought i'd take a couple of pictures. well, avery was ready and started right away as usual. blake, well...he put the paint straight to his mouth. the kid would won't put a piece of cake in his mouth decided he'd try the paint. (it was non toxic paint in case you were concerned) let's take a flashback to his first taste of paint that his sister so nicely decided he needed. 

other than blue specks in his diaper for a few days all was well. so, they started painting so nicely together. he was watching her and i thought, here he goes. 

i guess he decided he needed to wash his paint down and wanted a drink. 

the activity quickly changed. 

oh well. needless to say i didn't get to bask in the sun. but, atleast the house didn't get destroyed for one afternoon! 

b+w wednesday

i am ashamed. i got my real camera out today to snap some pictures of the kids for the first time...since christmas? certainly, this can't be true. thank goodness for cell phones! i have no idea what we've been doing. well, i do know! i took the first two weeks off of the year from sessions. after the madness i just needed some time to re-group and school was out so it makes it difficult to much done. the big exciting news is that gigi is moving to texas. and not just texas but 10 minutes away from us! i CANNOT wait! i am so overjoyed that my kids are going to grow up with their grandma so close. i keep telling everyone that my mother-in-law is moving. the looks are usually pretty funny. and are followed up with "um, is that a good thing?" or "are you happy?". i guess they find my excitement different from the norm. but, we are excited and can't wait to have more family to share our life with!! so, the countdown has begun! and i'd be lying if i said i wasn't looking forward to a few more date nights with my husband! i might even let him pick the movie...doubtful. ;) we can't wait for you to come gigi! other than that marks been running and running and running. he'll he doing his first marathon soon!

blake and avery. well, their bond just continues to grow. i love my one on one time with blake. with only a few months left in the school year i'll miss it next year when he will be going as well. he loves picking her up from school and gets excited to see her again. today we went to pick her up and she was completely asleep. i think waking her up is on the top of blake's favorite things to do. i usually take pictures of the cuteness but changed my mind mid waking sleeping beauty. if this doesn't make you say aw i don't know what will!



awwww!!!!