Tuesday, June 8, 2010

i need a vacation from our vacation! our house is out of order and we have a ton to do and now it's raining which is not helping me get motivated. ok, if you don't want to hear about weaning just scroll to the pictures! :)

avery will be 1 year in 2 weeks. my goal was to nurse for her first year. i'd like to give myself a huge pat on the back for making it this far. it wasn't always easy, especially at the beginning. i remember feeling like a cow and all i did was feed her for the first month or two. it would be painful at times but i would just offer her milk and she would usually eat. it was a little painful but nothing like weaning. everybody told me it would be hard in the beginning and to stick with it. so, i think i was prepared and i had it built up to be this horrible thing and it wasn't. sort of like labor and delivery when everyone tells you their war stories, so i found it to be much easier than i was expecting. anyways, weaning is WAY more painful than i thought. i have decided to give avery the chance to nurse and if she doesn't take it well then that's it. we cut out a feeding last week in denver and it was very smooth. well, last night she decided not to drink very much before bed. i knew i should have pumped but thought that wasn't really weaning now was it? fast forward to 5:30 in the morning and i can't sleep because my boobs are going to explode. i can't lay on my side because it hurts. i think about going to pump but i know avery will be up in an hour so two. so, i give in and get avery up and she eats like a champ. she must have been hungry, right? i don't want to stop now or i need to figure out something else because this sucks! why didn't anyone tell me it was going to hurt like this? but just in case you are reading this and it's making you not want to nurse please don't take that away from this message. i think it's great for your baby and for the mother and it's such a special time and bonding even if it is in the middle of the night. i have a few of my favorite nursing moments that i will cherish forever. avery actually smiled for real for the first time in the middle of the night when i was feeding and had i not been the only bar in town it would have been a different experience.

here are a couple more pictures from last week!
girl power
avery loves dogs
gabi and avery had matching outfits. aren't they cute!
parents can still act like kids! :)
date night!

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